EEEK...I can't move lol!!!

Okay, so my last post was about how very motivated that I am feeling. I am still feeling pretty motivated. On Wednesday I had a good day off. I kept my diet all day, and I even got to hang out with Carried and to the...duh duh duuuuh....SHRED. The shred theoretically isn't that hard, but in reality, it's pretty exhausting, but well worth it. In Carrie's blog she said that she heard tell that someone who did it needed help getting off the toilet, well I believe it.

Let me just tell you that after doing the exercise I thought I was tough, but I wasn't...later that day my thighs were killing me. Then the next day my abs were so sore, and I had a cough, and everytime I would have a coughing fit...lets just say...SORE. On the other hand...that soreness made me feel accomplished. So what did I do you ask?? I went to Hastings and bought my own copy so that Carrie doesn't have to watch me make a fool of myself doing the exercises. Thanks Carrie for introducing me to.... duh duh duuuhhh...the shred! I just finished doing it for the second time and am feeling a little shaky.

I also bought another video to try so that I can work on my moves lol and keep my interest. The other movie is a dance movie.
Before I did the Shred I did about half of one of these routines and realized something very important...I CAN'T DANCE. So I am just going to keep trying to learn the moves!! So now that I am finished with my workouts for the day I am off to make some supper for my hubby. Thanks Carrie for helping me to stay motivated!

Today is a good day!!

Today has been a VERY good day. I just thought that I would share. Today was the day I decided I was going to make myself be good to myself. I woke up early and got ready for work. I started my day out very prepared! I was prepared to eat healthy all day, and I took a pair of socks and tennis shoes so that I could go for a walk after work. I even remembered my headphones, I never thought I would say this, but Thank god for whoever it is that created the iPod. So after work I went over to Don Owens sports complex and walked the track for 40 minutes and listened to some music while reflecting on the amazing life God has given me. I love worship music, it helps me to keep my life in perspective! It felt so good to do something good for me. While I was walking I realized that I hadn't really heard from Michael all day, so I kept trying to call but he didn't answer. Also while I was walking I decided what I was going to make for supper. I made a quick run to Kroger for a tomato and some fat free sour cream and then headed home to fix supper for the hubby. Before I made it home Michale called to tell me that there was a mail box full of goodies! Wanna know what came in???? Drum roll please.....

I was so excited! It's official, I am an educated woman, and genuine college graduate, and I have that stupid piece of paper to prove it!!! I know...it's silly, but I am so proud of it! Can't wait to find it a permanent home. I also got a graduation card from June! Thanks June, I was just kidding when I teased you about sending me one! It was a beautiful card and I loved it!

I'm so excited about the wonderful day I have had and am praying that tomorrow will be just as joyful!

Day 4 and 5 of feelin feminine and more

So...I did wear a dress yesterday, it was even a really cute one...however I was so disheveled by the time I got home last night that the picture I took looked terrible...so I am not going to share. It was a cute black dress with turquoise polka dots. It has a collar and cap sleeve and a belt. I bought it at Lane Bryant last year for a funeral. I feel classic when I wear it and it makes me feel good! Today....was dress down Friday. ....so......I wore jeans...I admit it...I totally wore jeans. Please forgive me ladies, I love to wear dresses, but I just don't find them comfy...so I took advantage of dress down Friday.


Okay, so moving on, today I finally went back to a normal people schedule it went by very fast, but got off to a rough start. However, I told myself that just because it started out rough that it didn't have to stay rough, things really brightened up later in the day and I really did actually enjoy work today. I have been trying really hard to talk myself into getting back into the swing of things with my diet when my schedule went to normal, so today when Michael spend our life savings...I mean went to the grocery store I tried to buy some healthier food. We are going to try Carrie's chile burgers and I got some Ronzoni noodles. Yoplait light is always on my favorite diet foods, it's the only diet yogurt that tastes real! We also got some fresh veggies to make skewers out of and we also got some stuff to grill, cuz I loves me some grilled meat. So next week I am going to make it my goal to try to eat healthy next week and to walk at least three days out of the week. I have some work to do to catch up to Carrie who has already lost almost 10lbs. Way to go Carrie! I hope that I can reach the kind of dedication she has.

Day 3

Today was a pretty good day. I got up and got ready pretty early so that I could go run around with Carrie. We were in search for the perfect birthday outfit for Carrie and did come across some great prospects. At the top of the list was a pre-wrinkled pink tee shirt from maurices...$30.00...ouch!
Today I wore a dress that I bought last year at the end of summer for $11.99 from Cato. So far the only type of clothes I have had any luck with at Cato is dresses, I love to go in and get their clearance dresses, they usually have a pretty good deal. Today I also decided not to mess with my naturally oily hair and wore it in curls!

Please keep me in your prayers tomorrow. Tomorrow is my Mary Kay Intro party. Please pray that I will have a good turn out and really be able to get my name out there!

Today's Outfit
Dress- Cato
Shoes- Walmart.

Day 2

This is actually my favorite dress. I actually bought it at Cato to wear for Michael and I's first wedding anniversary. I know that was 3 years ago, but I'll have you know that I still see dresses that are this exact same style in the stores today. So I still maintain that it was a good buy, and I think I only paid like $20 for it. My shoes are not showing, but they are the campaign colored saltwater sandals that I wore at my sisters wedding.

Dress- Cato
Sandals- Not sure, but I do know they came from the mall in Modesto, Ca.

Feelin Feminine Day 1&2

Blouse- Fashion Bug
Skirt- Lane Bryant
Shoes- Walmart

Okay, so I have been reading this blog called "The Faithful Fashionista." She challenged all of her readers to a "Feelin' Feminine Challenge" She challenged her readers to wear dresses and skirts for one week. I am still unsure of the purpose of this challenge, but she says that it will help you to view your closet differently and rediscover the feeling of feminity by appreciating modest feminine fashion. I don't know that I will experience all of that in my week of skirt wearing, but I do know that this is a big week for me. On Thursday night I have my Mary Kay intro party. I feel that while promoting my new adventure I can and should look my best. I find that looking my best gives me confidence to pursue this dream and will in turn tell my possible clients that I care about myself enough to share my beauty tricks with you. So...here goes. This week, (work week) I will wear only skirts and dresses. Each day I will look different and try to be at my best. I'm currently on day two and I already feel better about myself. I have taken pictures of my outfits, but I have to admit that I really have issues looking at myself since I have gained back all the weight I lost last year, maybe this will also give me the motivation to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!! Okay so here goes.

My Husband Rocks

My husband Rocks. Nicole challenged all of her blogger buddies to tell her why their husbands rock...There really is not shortages of my husband bragging on my blog, but I would be happy to share once again. My husband rocks!! I could tell you that he rocks because he cooks and cleans. I could tell you that he rocks because he is a God fearing man who loves and respects his wife. I could tell he rocks because he is supportive and yet tells me when I am out of line. I could tell you he rocks because he is a hopeless romantic and always gives me flowers if he's been a butthead. I could even tell you he rocks because he feeds the cats and cleans out the litter box...but I won't. What I am going to tell you though is that he rocks because he puts up with me. I'm sure this may come as a huge surprise to you, but I might as well admit it that I am not always the easiest person to get a long with. I say what I think when I think it, even if it doesn't come out the way I meant it to. I cry at the drop of a hat when I get stressed out...and ladies...when I am hormonal...man it's scary. I love my husband though and he rocks because he puts up with me through all of my many faults. He does do all the things I listed before, but in the end he rocks because he's willing to do all those things for me whether I deserve it or not because he loves me for me and who I am inside and out. I thank god for him everyday and pray that we will always be as much in love as we are today!

The Nitty Gritty

Okay...so...so far this morning...well this week has not been one of my greatest weeks. I have been wanting to post this blog for a while, but just couldn't bring myself to do it. I know you have all had those days where everything hits you all at once and there is seemingly nothing you can do to stop it? Well I am there... Rest assured I don't intend to stay there, but none the less I am there for the moment.
The last few months (2.5 years) have been a little rough on me. God has given me the most spectacular life with the most loving husband that I could ever imagine. I am so grateful for all that he has provided me. My life long ambition from as far back as I can remember has been to be a mommy. On our 1 year anniversary we decided to start trying to expand our family, I got pregnant right away and had a miscarriage early on in the pregnancy. Several rounds of infertility meds, blood tests and a whole lot of tears...still no babies. Ya'll I just about killed myself worrying about my fertility problems and begging God to give me the gift of a child with no return except good blood test results. A couple of months ago I went in for my yearly "fun" appointment and the doc says "you wanna go see a specialist?" I tell him that I may like to do that when we can afford it and he informed me that they would have to do some tests on Michael before they could send me. So we went in for the test and waited and waited for the results. I had confidence that everything was going to be normal, but when she called she informed be that Michael had ZERO good sperm and needed to see a Urologist ASAP. Which course terrified me and I was devastated all at the same time. I felt like someone had just taken my first born. They told me that he couldn't have children....and on top of that the reason he couldn't have children could cause him to be very sick. I was TERRIFIED. I think I cried for a week straight, and then all of the sudden a great peace came over me and I felt God telling me that he had other plans in store for me. Now, I know that my God is bigger than the doctors statistics and that if he wants to give me a child, he will. However, I am not convinced that the child will come from my own womb. (it will if God makes it of course, I havn't lost faith or anything) At this point my priority was to make sure my husband was healthy and not at risk for major health problems. Alas, God is good and what was potentially a VERY serious problem was a birth defect that had taken care of itself and left Michael perfectly heatlhy, but infertile.
I still feel the peace that God gave me about not being able to have children, but every now and then I still feel the pain as I wait for God to make his next move. I find the pain in places where it doesn't belong. Like take for instance today, stuff unrelated has got me down and here I am crying about something that I have full faith that God is in control of. (I know...I'm a loon)
All of this has brought me to where I am today. A few weeks ago I had a week off of work and went to a Bible Studay with Carrie. I had missed the whole study except for the last one. There I met a woman who sells Mary Kay....I love Mary Kay products...and she asked Carrie and I to get a facial. Since I love Mary Kay products I of course said Yes!!! In that facial I decided that I wanted to try my hand at selling Mary Kay. After I decided I doubted myself, but once again God is good, and nothing, I tell you nothing screams confirmation like a directly answered prayer from God. There I was having my doubts because I had no place to have my introduction, I asked God to show me the place and out of nowhere a friend offers to let me have it at her house, without being asked. Have you ever had that moment where it is absolutly blatant that you are right where God wants you to be? Well I had it...and I am happy to say that it's all been down hill since then. If you can imagine a kink in the road, I'm working through it right now. However when God is on your side all things are possible and I know that he will pull me through because he has already told me that I am right where he wants me to be. Please pray for us as we go through this time in our lives.